Have you ever found yourself thinking “I wish I got a sign”.
From God or the universe.
The stranger on the bus, who randomly starts talking to you.
A lightning strike from the clear sky.
9 out of 10 times, this is unlikely to happen.
There are other signs though.
But more often than not, we simply choose to ignore them.
Maybe out of desperation.
Or you think, or others tell you, that you might be overreacting.
And you just hope that this was just one of those moments and next time things surely will be better.
You’d think I’d learn from mistakes while job hunting, but I seem to be ignoring the vital signs over and over again.
And how many signs there were for my most recent job.
When I saw the vacancy, I knew that this was the job I was searching for.
I had done a similar job before and it made me feel like a fish in the water.
Not too long after I applied, I got a vague email with an invitation to a Personality and an IQ test.
I hate those, but these days every company uses it.
I figured I might as well get over with it as soon as possible.
For 3 months there was a radio silence, despite my several emails asking for an update.
Then on one fine day I got an invite for a Skype call to discuss the results of those tests.
One week later, the manager showed me the results and I had to explain my answers in a 2.5 hour call.
Honestly, 3 months ago I was in a different mood and therefore No, I don’t recognize myself in the profile he presented me with it.
But I could hardly say that.
So I bluffed my way through it.
With success because I was invited to a face to face interview.
They didn’t offer to refund the flight and hotel and I was too afraid to ask.
I survived another 2 hour interrogation.
And finally I was told that the manager would like me to do one final skype call with one of the team leads.
This was actually someone I worked with a few years ago.
I remember him being a typical “Alfa man” with a personality that shows little empathy.
Also, whether that was because of his below average English knowledge or that personality, I thought he lacked communication skills.
But he wasn’t a bad person.
Besides, we are both 7 years older.
I waited for that invitation from him, but nothing came.
So I send an email asking if he could invite when it was most suitable for him.
In the middle of the night, I noticed an email notification.
One single sentence was showed:
“Are you Andrea, or are you crazy”.
I panicked and cried.
After investing all that time, patience and money, they surely didn’t mean this as some sort of practical joke?
2 days later, I got the invitation for a skype call.
To my big relief, it was just a very casual chat.
This made me decide to sign the contract, completely ignoring my gut feeling.
The first few months at the job, it became very clear to me that they hadn’t made any plan for me whatsoever.
I did ask for it, but they told me they had more of a “go with the flow approach”.
This mindset doesn’t suit me one bit, but hey, who am I to judge.
After that, things got worse.
I got falsely accused, yelled at and ignored.
Despite my red eyes, clearly indicating that I have spend my time crying in the bathroom, not any of the colleagues asked as much as if I was doing alright.
After a little more than a year, I wrote my resignation letter with the promise to finish the month.
This letter was ignored, although verbally very briefly discussed, until yesterday.
Yesterday my manager stated that the company has decided to break the contract with me.
If they didn’t owe me one last pay, I would have send this:
Have you ever indicated the clear signs upon taking a job?
What were they?
Did you choose to ignore them?